I am now officially a high school graduate. The ceremony was long, drawn out, with what seemed like hundreds of scholarships. Which, admittedly, would have been wonderful if almost all of the scholarships hadn't gone to only two people! Really, I mean, I don't know if that is the way it usually goes, with only a few people getting the bulk of the money, but it didn't seem fair to me. But then, maybe those two were the only ones with real ambition...most of the kids at the graduation were "at risk" teenagers. I wasn't, because I wasn't a member of that particular section of the school..it's hard to explain..There is on campus, but that one small campus houses three different schools. One is for the "at risk" kids; then a homeschooling station (where I went); then Adult Ed. All in all, there were about 80 people graduation from all three of those schools. They are very small schools, ha.

I was very nervous for some reason. I mean, I was dreading it. Not because I was afraid of being an adult, blah blah, but because I was going up in front of so many people, and I didn't know any of them. Being home schooled gave me this sense of isolation and social awkwardness. I felt sick even thinking about it. When we were all sitting in one of the class rooms I tried to talk to one of the other girls, but she wasn't interested. Maybe she was nervous, too, or having a bad day or something, but that didn't make me feel any better or more confidant. Tonight I'm supposed to go to Grad Night with on old friend that I just came into contact with again, but I'm starting to feel nervous. I'm such a wuss, but it's just that the last time I went out with a group when only one of them was my friend, I was the 6th wheel, you know? But, I know I will have fun. It's just the jitters, I suppose. But what do I have to be scared of? Crap.